The Awesome Trio

Missing u Mom!

Posted on November 25, 2008 ·Tagged love, mama.

In a couple of days, we will be remembering our mom’s death anniversary. Yes, it’s been a year since our mom passed away.

Nagpaparamdam na naman si mama, pero di sa akin e. Yung isang officemate ko saw my mom last week sa CR, he was passing by from the men’s comfort room and he saw my mom wearing her usual blue blazer and she was fixing herself in front of the mirror. My officemate was delivering some documents to HRDS (my mom’s office) and he mentioned that he saw “Ate Amy,” my mom’s officemates told him “Sinong Ate Amy, baka Ate Armi…e patay na si Ate Armi di ba?” Para daw binuhusan ng malamig na tubig yung officemate ko kasi he forgot na matagal na nga palang pumanaw ang nanay ko.

It’s been a year pero I can still remember the day my brother called me up and told me to rush to the hospital coz our mom stopped breathing! I was almost 3 mos pregnant. My siblings were telling me to calm down coz I have to think of the baby. She died in the hospital during her dialysis session. She died of heart attack, one day before her birthday. Everyone was shocked but I guess my mom wanted it that way. She kept telling us that she was tired of the pain. She was tired of what she was going through and she simply wants to rest.

My mom was a very strong woman. Even when she was undergoing dialysis treatments, she would still go to work in her better days. We would sit and chat in her office for hours, on her last days she had given me the best set of advice any mom could give to her daughter.

We all miss her so much! A part of me felt real empty when she left. There were a lot of “what ifs” in my life…things that if I’d be given the chance to change, I’d grab it. How I wish I have given my mom all the good things in life and how I wish she didn’t have to go through what she had gone through in the last years of her life. She was a fighter, an inspiration to all of us! How I wish I’m half as strong as her…

But life has to go on. My siblings and I are picking up the pieces from where she left it. We are all trying our best to make her proud. We are going through “stuff” right now but I know in the end, we will emerge victorious. We love each other so much Ma and that love will heal everything.

Mama, I wish you could see Cerise now, she reminds me of you. You may not have the chance to hold her in your arms..but I know she can feel your love.

Thank you Mama for all the years of love, patience and guidance. We may be smiling but our hearts never stopped crying! We all love and deeply miss you so much!

TMNB

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